December already, i can't believe it

well this year definitely has gone by fast, although for me maybe that's a good thing because of all the bad things that have happened. it definitely has not been a good year for me and my family. so hopefully next year will go a lot better. although i would give anything to have my dad back but there is nothing i can do to change that.

well i finally finished my education portfolio yesterday and presented it to 2 other people in my class. i was pretty nervous and you could tell because i kind of stumbled over my words and didn't really go into depth in my analysis as i should have. but it's over and done with and that's all i care about. now all i have left is my 12 page paper and a 4 page paper, both due for monday. i'm a little worried but i just have to work my butt off this weekend to get them done. and then study for finals and on the 15th i'll be free for 3 weeks to do absolutely nothing, although i'm sure i'll be working a lot. which is ok cause i need to make some money.

last night i decided to text message derek and i said, "i know you hate me but i wish we could talk again. maybe go for coffee. i just want to put things behind us and be friends again." he replied this morning, " i don't hate you. give me a call and we'll work something out". so i'm going to give him a call tonight. i haven't talked to him for quite awhile now. probably since like august when we got in a huge fight. but i realized that life is too short and i hate fighting with people. and i do miss talking to him. maybe we won't be best friends but it would be nice to talk to him once and awhile. so we'll see how that goes i guess.

other than that, nothing else exciting is really going on with me. i am looking forward to next semester cause of the change in classes and hopefully it won't be as stressful as this semester has been. although i shouldn't have a class that had as many assignments as my education class did. well i hope not anyways.

well i should probably go and get something to eat and then i have one more class to go today. after that, it's time to get cracking and work on my 12 page paper, how exciting for me. lol