need to vent

well i am starting to think that meeting guys off the net is a bad thing. i keep meeting all these losers who either say they are interested and then all of a sudden dont want a relationship and stop speaking to me. or they just want to try and get in my pants and if i don't give that to them right away then they stop talking to me.

like take Chris for example, 3 weeks ago he came over and we made out on my couch downstairs and i know he wanted to have sex with me but i couldn't cause it was the time of the month. plus i don't sleep with people right away, especially if i'm not dating them. and then i don't talk to him until today, which is 3 weeks since that day. so he comes online and i asked him why i haven't heard from him for such a long time and all of a sudden he goes offline. so i phoned him. and he tells me that he's been really busy, mostly hanging out with his friends. and i said, so that means you can't phone? and he was telling me how he told me that he didn't want a relationship and i said ok so that still means you cant call me for 3 weeks? and he's like well i'll still talk to you if you want. basically means he doesn't really want to. so i said well i'm going to let you go bye and hung up the phone before he could say anything back. it just pisses me off. why do guys only want 1 thing? and if they don't get it, then why do they just stop talking to you even if they say they want to be friends? see guys think that girls are complicating but guys are just as complicating if not worse.

i still havent heard whether i'm going to be on the show or not. i really hope they don't do it as a last minute thing and tell me that i'm leaving that day in a couple hours cause that would suck. i really would love the chance to go even though i would have to miss a couple days of school. but i don't have any tests or anything this week so it would work out ok for a few days. i hope that i find out tomorrow. they said they want to tape the show on thursday so i would need to know by tomorrow. i hate waiting cause i'm so impatient.

well i should get back to typing out my assignment for psych. i don't know how good it is but hopefully i did ok on it. we just had to find 3 articles that related to a topic that we picked and summarize each of them into 1 page and that was basically it. but it was hard to make it to just 1 page. if i go a little over then oh well. it's only worth 15% but it could boost my mark up if i do well.

i'll write more later.