boys suck
so tonight i was talking with Chad, who i used to hang out with lots and we made out and stuff. and tonight he tells me that he never really found me appealing and that he thought i was a big girl. so i said, then why did you try and get me to sleep with u? and he's like, well i was trying to see you as a person. like what a jerkish response. so i've blocked him now. like what an asshole. i can't believe i ever liked him. but he really was annoying. and embarassing to be around in public. but still. it angers me. i've decided to join Curves in january so i can lose some weight and when i become a really hot girl who's skinny and pretty, i'm going to go to all the guys who ever shut me down or made fun of me for being bigger and make them feel like they lost out on something great. cause they did. why does it always have to be about looks? i'm not that big of a girl, yet girls who are way bigger than me seem to get guys. so why can't i?
tonight i went to see my friend Mike and his friend Tim do an acoustic show at Starbucks. it was really good. they are both really good singers. there was a lot of people there, including this chris guy that i met a long time ago. it turns out his sister is married to Tim. so it's kind of a small world. but anyways, then me and jenn tom went to bps for some nachos, they were so good. we were going to go to a movie but both of us were pretty tired. in fact i think i'm ready to go to sleep now.
but i also wanted to say that i'm not going to meet guys off the internet anymore. all it seems to do is hurt me. so i'm going to concentrate on school and who knows, maybe i'll meet someone there. but i'm not going to look. they can come to me. although hopefully they wont' take too long lol i miss being in a relationship. why can't i just find a nice guy who likes me for me and is not so concerned on how i look on the outside? do those guys actually exist? i am starting to wonder. my friends always tell me that they think i am pretty and stuff but maybe they are just saying that to make me feel better about myself. who knows.
anyways more later, i'm off to bed.
posted by Aaron @ 12:19 a.m.
6 Comments:
Do not join Curves to lose weight just so you can show guys what they lost out on. You should learn to accept who you are and if you want to change how you look then lose weight for yourself, but do not do it for anyone else. Stop falling for every guy that gives you a little attention. If some guy you meet off the net suddenly stops talking to you and doesn't want to hangout, then move on, he probably wasn't worth the time and effort anyway. Do not start messaging him or calling him over and over because you make yourself appear desperate. Do not be so dependant on being in a relationship that you need that person to tell you how you should feel about yourself. Guys will be attracted to you if you learn to have more confidence in yourself.
well i do want to lose weight partly to show off to all those guys who have made fun of me in the past. but i am mostly going to lose weight for myself because i am not happy with the way i look and therefore have a hard time having confidence in myself. and i am not going to worry about any of the guys who will no longer talk to me cause clearly they are not worth my time. i also need to stop meeting guys off the net cause they seem to be no good. by the way, who are you? i am curious as to who else reads this and always seems to give me advice.
Hey I just thought I would write not to join curves , but if you do just make sure they take the right amount of money out of your account because they megga screwed me over taking more money from me than they needed to take and then when I tryed to fight them on it they refused to refund me my money so just be careful if you do go (its fun other wise lol)
Yeah, no need to go do that for the sake of getting at the guys. You really are a cute chick! So no need to go and do something just to get at us guys. Best thing is to always remember that you just have to be yourself and not sell out to ANYONE just to impress them. I personally have been single now for a few years, but it doesn't bother me too much (I'd lie if I said it didnt at all), but I know someday the right one will find me.
thanks to the person who thinks i'm cute. but who are you? i'm curious as to who thinks i am cute. do i know you and do we already talk? if not, maybe we could talk.
Oh yeah, we MSN every once in awhile. Look forward to hopefulyl catching you on there again soon cutie.
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