Going camping this weekend!!

first of all i just thought i would post a picture of myself since i haven't done that yet. hopefully it will work.

i am going camping this weekend with Ash and Jen and maybe Jody. Ash's sisters might also come out one night. Ash actually went up there today because she was worried that people from Craven might decide to camp there since we are going to Rowan's Rivine and it's really close to Craven. plus i didn't want to miss my class tomorrow so she's coming in to pick me up. i'm really excited about going camping. i haven't been camping for like 2 years and i just really want to get away and enjoy myself. i need a little vacation. i've been working all summer, plus taking classes so i just need to have some time to relax.

also, i want to know who my anonymous person is, who posted something knowing who i was cause they met me a long time ago but i might not remember them and that they think i'm a good person. can you just tell me who you are or email me or something? i'm curious to know who it is.

i really don't know what's going on with Brad. why do i believe my ex's when they say they want to be friends? i mean, they never seem to make the effort because all of a sudden they are so busy that they don't have time to call me or hang out with me. funny how it happens right after we break up. and then i get the whole, "well i don't really get to see or talk to my other friends either". i don't care about them, i care about whether they can prove to me or not that they want us to have a friendship and that they are actually going to make the effort to do that. and so far with Brad, i seem to be making all the effort. and everytime i ask him to hang out, he's always got some excuse. most of it is for work, but still that's not the point. i'm busy too but i still make the effort to call him once and awhile to see how he's doing but he hasn't once done that to me. i really don't want him out of my life but i'm tempted to just walk away from our whole supposed "friendship". cause i hate making all the effort.

I wish i could meet guys away from the internet. why do i seem to have all the trouble? It seems that everytime i meet guys from the internet, i have nothing but trouble and nothing good ever comes out of it. I just want to find someone to spend time with and have fun with. Being single is ok to some degree but i miss being part of a relationship. so who knows, maybe one day my time will come. guess i'll just have to wait and see.

i'll write more after this weekend. maybe some crazy things will happen lol probably cause you're mixing alcohol and me together. something crazy always happens when i drink lol j/k