i should just stop talking to my exs

seriously, why do my exs always give me such grief? they tell me they want to be friends with me but they don't make any effort at all. i'm the one that has to make all the effort. take Brad for instance. i didn't talk to him all week but on saturday i was really drunk at Habano's (i drank a mickey of strawberry twist vodka before the bar, no wonder i was drunk lol) and decided to call him around 11pm just to say hi. so we talked and i found out he didn't have any plans on sunday night so i asked if he wanted to hang out and he said sure and that he would call me around 5pm. so i worked all day sunday and then went home and had supper and started studying a bit. well by 7pm he hadn't called yet so i tried his cell but it said that he was out of the service area which means it wasn't on. so i tried his house but there was no answer. so i waited awhile and tried his cell again and his house. finally around 9:30, he answered his phone at his house. turns out he decided not to come into the city and just didn't bother to call and tell me that. and then he brushes it off like it's no big deal and that i shouldn't have waited around for him. excuse me? i did not wait around for him. i was at work all day. and i was studying. but i wasn't going to make other plans when he said he wanted to hang out, i don't do that. and it pisses me off when people make plans with me and then don't even have the decency to call me and tell me that they can't make it or won't be coming into the city.

and then he has the nerve to yell at me for calling him on saturday night, saying, "who in their right mind calls someone at 11 at night from the bar? what was so important that it couldn't wait until the next day?" well for 1 thing, lots of people call other people from the bar when they are drunk. and another thing, i thought he wasn't going to be home sunday night and i hadn't talked to him all week so i decided to phone him. but he like flipped out on me. he seems to be doing that ever since we broke up and getting mad at me for things. i'm sorry that i still don't like the idea of us not being together and if he still has feelings for me and thinks i'm so fantastic, why can't he just date me and take things slow? but when i mention that he gets mad cause he "hates explaining things over and over again". he doesn't have to, but it still confuses me that's all.

i asked him if he still wanted to hang out on wednesday and he's like, "why wouldn't i?" well gee you just ditched me on sunday and didn't bother to call to tell me you weren't coming into the city. no wonder i might think that you might change your mind about wednesday. if he ditches again, i think i might have to just cut him out of my life. i can't handle this. it's putting too much stress on me.

speaking of stress, i got my first cold sore in awhile. i guess all the stress these last 2 months have finally caught up to me. i thought i was just getting a cold yesterday cause i was a little stuffed up. but then today the coldsore emerged lol oh well, i figured it would happen sooner or later.

tomorrow night i write my final for Psych 333. i'll be glad to be finished with that class. and then i have a week before my summer class starts, Psych 204 which is research methods. which is probably going to be similar to the social studies class i just took last semester. so maybe that will help me pass this one with a high mark. at least that's what i'm hoping.

i think i've made this long enough. i'm going to head to bed and get a good night's sleep so i can get up and study all day before my test.