the year is almost over

hard to believe that 2005 is almost over. but i'm glad about that cause i can't wait to start a new year and start fresh. this has been the worst year of my life. if someone would have told me that i was going to lose my dad this year, i would have told them that they were crazy. i know i was in denial about my dad having cancer and i always told myself that he was strong and he would pull through. but unfortunately that didn't happen. we did go and see his grave on sunday, which was really sad. we also saw my grandma's and my grandpa's grave(my mom's mom and my dad's dad). i guess that will be our new tradition now, although i would rather have them back then going to see their grave.

other than that Christmas was pretty good. it was pretty weird though that my aunt, uncle and 2 of my cousins weren't there. my aunt has never missed a christmas. but i'm sure they are having an awesome time in disneyland right now. i'm so jealous.

work on saturday wasn't as bad as i thought. it got a little busy around 2:30 but it wasn't too crazy. and we got out of there by 5:15 so that was good. and then that night we went to my other aunt and uncles, where we had supper and snacks and mostly sat around talking. when we came home that night, my brother finished wrapping his presents, while i put stuff in my moms stocking.

on christmas morning, my mom, brother and i opened presents. i got a new 27" TV for my room. so i was pretty happy about that. cause i was used to having a 13". i also got Oprah's 20th anniversary dvd, madagascar dvd, dirty dancing dvd and dirty dancing:havana nights dvd, fever pitch dvd, charlie and the chocolate factory dvd, some plates, new slippers, a shirt from old navy, lotions, and then a bunch of stuff in my stocking. i did pretty well this year lol and my mom loved her gift to the spa. she started crying just like i knew she would. we are going on January 13th and coming back on the 14th. i can't wait. i hope that the weather will be nice enough for us to go.

i can't believe that school starts again next week. it's been so nice not having to drive all the way to the university or do any more papers or anything like that. hopefully i won't have as much writing to do this semester as i did last semester. then again i won't have my education class where i had a paper due like every week. it does suck though that i have 2 night classes. i'm hoping that i will still be able to hang out at Rob's place on monday afternoons so i don't have to go all the way home and then go all the way back for my night class. but we'll see i guess.

well i am still not meeting any guys off the internet. there was this one guy i was going to meet but then he went and started saying the exact same things he said to me to another girl, and she just happened to be my best friend. he was saying stuff like, oh i really like you and if i met you and held you, i don't think i would be able to let you go and stuff like that. and he knew how much i've been hurt by guys in the past and he kept saying that he was different than other guys and that he would show me that there are nice guys out there. well i was stupid enough to believe that he might be right. i'm just glad i didn't meet him.i don't need another jerk in my life. why can't i just find a nice guy, who likes me and wants to spend time with me and wont' treat me like crap? why is it so hard? there are so many guys at the university and for some reason i can't find one. maybe its cause i'm too shy, i don't know.

anyways that's all i have to say for now. i'll try and post some pictures from Christmas next time i post.

p.s.- John do you still read this? just wondering if you were busy last night and that's why you never called me to hang out. it sucks but oh well i understand. maybe next time. i am probably coming to calgary feb. 17-22.